From the journalist and critically acclaimed author of The Wild Other, an unflinching, beautifully written, and deeply personal book about motherhood, female identity and sexuality - for all mothers and anyone about to embark on that journey.

BEST BOOKS OF THE YEAR 2020- Observer, Telegraph, Good Housekeeping
'This is quite simply the best book about motherhood I have ever read.' - Eleanor Mills in the Sunday Times

Mother to five children, Clover Stroud has navigated family life across two decades, both losing and finding herself. In her touching, provocative and profoundly insightful book, she captures a sense of what motherhood really feels like - how intense, sensuous, joyful, boring, profound and dark it can be.

My Wild and Sleepless Nights examines what it means to be a mother, and reveals with unflinching honesty the many conflicting emotions that this entails- the joy and the wonder, the loneliness and despair.

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'Clover somehow manages to give shape to the mess and madness of motherhood'- Lucy Atkins
'As tender, blazing, funny and unflinching as the love it describes. I want to give this triumphant book to every mother I know' - Rachel Joyce
'There are few other books about motherhood as brave, honest and beautifully written as this one' - Sarah Langford
'Clover's expertise is writing about family life in a way that feels both new and entirely familiar' - Pandora Sykes
'This book has its own heartbeat. It crackles with life - its messiness, darkness, and joy. I loved it' - Eve Chase
'Brilliant - touching, tender, honest and so true' - Eleanor Mills

Charting the course of one year, the first in her youngest child's life, Clover searches for answers to questions that many of us would be too afraid to admit to - not only about motherhood, but also about female sexuality and identity. Her story will speak to all mothers, and anyone about to embark on that journey.